#53: almost 4 months…

we have not talk.. you have not replied any of my messages… not even my calls you answered. I don’t know what are you thinking there.. I am still waiting here for the reason you avoided me..  I guess it’s just an unlimited wait.. a wait that shouldn’t even exist.. I just want the answer.

#51: back to back fun on 2 days… drop dead and sick on day 3…. skipped work 4 days…

after reaching level 16 as an enlightened agent for a year plus.. it was my first anomaly; PANDANOMALY held in petaling jaya. I’m not a morning person so waking up in the morning is not my thing but i managed to. skipped work 2nd.

the day before… i was at The Delle Coffee & Tea to check-in and collect my paid swag pack. i wanted to collect on saturday but i changed my mind since i’m meeting a Singapore enl agent @shogun79 (knew him through @rockgambit) that night. skipped work 1st. after that went to farm a bit more at The Strand cluster with @khloke where he gave me R6 and R7 because i don’t have enough of them, not even the minimum requirements. I used most of them for fielding up level 16. can’t remember how many times i have hacked on the registration portals.

i knew nothing about their plannings. i read the instructions but not quite sure what it is. just follow what intel wants. i was swapping telegram with intel to map to game to lookout for res… my shoulders were tired.. is kinda stress a bit but is fun. bought char siew bao for brunch when we went toilet but no time to eat until they were getting soaky but heck! nice baos! I’ve not eaten char siew bao for a long time.. we got a thai intel. my driver @khloke zello-ing with him from time to time and also with another team (the driver, my gp killer) of 3; 1 guy 2 girls. along the way, hack back some weapons. there are times where the drift is what i hate. AND mosquitoes when i have to stand there by the roadside. when the whole thing over… i so wanted to go toilet. went into texas chicken but the toilet broke. bought a honey butter biscuit and munched. toilet postponed later at the duck rice shop. it was drizzling again when the photo-shoot took place.. and since it’s a huge crowd of agents.. whoever standing behind is invisible. for my part. as enl agent… i am glad that we won.

met up with some agents.. had a chat or two… then talked to @tchchin about our plan. at first we wanted to MD at night so i will have to decide which 6 to do and tell her. so i told her to check back with me later that night. while i was talking to her…. @amuyot came out of nowhere and almost gave a shock on my shoulders! @ksrf009 was with her. didn’t get to talk to them as they left. then met up with @feeleefehleh. since he ate McD earlier so we chat only. met up with @fivepointseven too. when the guys left, i finally got a place to sit for dinner at duck rice. was getting sleepy. trying to decide whether to stay back or to go home.

after dinner, really wanted to sleep. went to search for hourly rooms but no luck. when @tchchin called, we decided to change plan. do in the morning. when i reached home, after bathing. drop dead. i was dozing in the car when @khloke sent me home. damn tired to do anything anymore.

skipped work 3rd. woke up at 4 am because @tchchin said she’s picking me up at 530 am. she told me the Singapore agents already did the mission midnight time. so only 2 of us. it was 6 am i think when she reached my place. she fielded along the way. my usual routine too when i go out. rarely failed to do this routine unless i am taking public transport. i was her local guide because she’s not familiar with pj. some places i still need the map. when she missed a turn, i gave her alternative route which is new to her. got @feeleefehleh to join us, since he’s at mbpj. we had breakfast at ss2 after doing central park bandar utama mission. there we met @deangel and her partner (i forgot how to spell his ign). when we did the ss2 mission, we went thru the morning market. by the way, their scanners drifted more than mine. we did 12 missions before departing. @tchchin did the remaining on her own.

@feeleefehleh went back to the hotel to sleep. he wasn’t feeling well anyway… ended up food poisoning.. i went to nu sentral from asia jaya lrt station. had a boost. bought undergarment. took ktm home. wanted to eat McD first but too many people. went straight home. bathed. drop dead. standing inside the train also can sleep. i was really sleepy. slept till night. it was my first time doing mission day with res AND 2! i have never done missions with opposition faction.

skipped work 4th. headache and fever. now… i can’t remember i got it on Sunday night or Monday… and i can’t remember when i had a simple snack meal.. it was raining on early sunday morning. i guess i caught the rain.

#50: need a break

i do need a break from here. not now. maybe after my 1 month job first. my mind thinks too much. it’s getting stuck. i’m data entry now. maximum pay can get up to RM 1500 but this isn’t really easy; the photo editing is the tricky part. minimum 100 rows per week. job start from 15/8/2017 till 15/9/2017. i’m struggling to get the 100 rows. didn’t work 1 day because of emotional breakdown. the pay. won’t last for a month but at least is something. and i’m trying to keep my mind from thinking stuff. though i can’t help it when i’m not working.

sometimes i will do multi-tasking, not letting my mind a break but that’s not the right way because i tend to stress more. even now i’m multi-tasking because i got a bit bored doing work. i’m breaking down more often than i can control. the type of heart pain is never ending. emotional breakdown is serious. but who knows? only friends who know what i’m facing, will understand. without them, i don’t know what will happen. though they can’t keep an eye on me all the time. heart breaks hurt all the time.

i don’t know yet where. but it’s a short trip. maybe a 1 day trip without me driving. i don’t drive long distance. not even as short as the nearest outstation state. driving can create tension, which i don’t want.

mosquitoes stinging me now. how i wish i have the mosquito racket with me now. had to close the windows. it’s so hot.

i have never been away alone. but i’m going to. it may not be the best solution for me. but it has to be something.

#49: Baked Beer Chicken with Dried Chillies

My weird cooking again..


  • Chicken whole legs (I have 2)
  • Homemade stock
  • Dried chillies
  • Beer
  • 1 tbsp Dark Soy sauce
  • 1 tbsp Light Soy sauce


  1. Clean the chicken legs.
  2. Marinate with homemade stock (can use salt send pepper instead).
  3. Cut dried chillies into smaller pieces (I used about 10).
  4. Pour in beer (I used about half of a big bottle).
  5. Marinate overnight inside a container, in the fridge.
  6. Take out from fridge, add in dark soy sauce k for some color) and light sauce. Mix well.
    • Use a fork to poke some holes on the meat to absorb the marinate.

  7. Put back inside the fridge until time to cook.
  8. Baked at 200°C for 30 minutes or until cooked.


  1. I scooped some of liquid over the chicken, and spread the chillies on top before putting inside the oven.
  2. The remaining liquid, I kept in a bottle, inside the fridge.

#48: The Truth IS DIFFERENT

The technician fixed my problem. And I got a SMS asking to rate the service. Everybody will get the SMS once restoration done.

In the SMS, 0-10 means Difficult; 7-8 means Neutral; 9-10 means Easy. BUT IN REALITY.. If we vote 0-8 to the technician, he will get called for explanation for getting such low ratings. Basically… TM wants us to rate 9-10 AND BEST IS 10 BECAUSE TO THEM MEANS VERY GOOD PERFORMANCE.

The ratings not only applicable to restoration technicians but all: new installations, call center, etc..

I tried once. Rated a call center representative 0. In less than 1 hour, another department called, asked why did I rate that person 0.

Sometimes we rate 5-6 as average right? But to TM, average should be at least 8. BETTER IF AVERAGE DOESN’T EXIST. BECAUSE THEY ONLY WANT 9-10.