#78: December

Is here again. Started off with a Free Frozen Fanta from McD, for completing an onsite survey. That was few days ago.

Also, flu got worse after getting caught in rain. And fever after that. Thanks to Hurix’s flu medicine that i bought from 7-11.

Yesterday we had dinner with his parents in a vegetarian restaurant, nearby his parents’ house, in Seri Kembangan. His mom’s birthday falls on the 5th, Tuesday. I had no idea about the dinner because he didn’t tell me about it. It was his mom asking, only then I know. Imagine if I agreed to go back my parents’ house for dinner. Anyway, that’s his fault for not telling in the first place. Not my fault.

He came back with shoes and clothes. He bought Giordano jeans, which I think got discounts for 2 pairs. And Tomaz shoes, shirt, pants, and jacket, which these are not meant for daily use at all. Especially the jacket. He said wear to dinners. I was like… what?! Who three hell wear like that in Malaysia? You’re not even a VIP of any sort that requires you to wear so formal. Sometimes I suspect his money spending got problem. Why spend on clothes that you rarely wear? It makes me felt like you want to show off, telling people that you can afford it but actually you don’t fit in the category.

The 12th marks our 11 years of marriage. I’m not reminding him at all. It’s really boring if I’ve to remind annually. A date that I don’t really bother anymore.

The 18th marks my birthday. Every year, no matter what, I’ll treat myself of my favorite, and buy myself a gift. I shall redeem Starbucks’ free cake. If only there’s Boost here, can get free drink. Juice works got extra 10% discount for birthday month. GSC also can get free movie with (*).

I think the best present to give me is money. I’m wishing for money.

#76: Tortilla Chips with Stir Fries

Initially wanted to make dumplings but ended up this way, since the original tortilla chips not nice to eat.


  • Mission’s Original Corn Tortilla Chips
  • Cherry Tomatoes, mixed color
  • White Button Mushrooms
  • Chili Flakes
  • Oil
  • Potatoes
  • Red Apple


  1. Wash and peel the potatoes, and apple. Julienne them.
  2. Slice the mushrooms into smaller pieces.
  3. Half the tomatoes.
  4. In a pan, heat some oil.
  5. Saute the potatoes until they soften.
  6. Add in mushrooms, and stir fry them.
  7. Then add in the apples, and tomatoes. Stir fry until all mix well.
  8. Then season with the chili flakes.
  9. Serve on tortilla chips.

#75: Burning Fire..

gets dimmer during weeping days.. wanting to let go.. but every time.. there is this unwilling or not wanting to give up feeling that makes me keep going.. fire burning brighter.. I’m fighting myself.. it’s suffocating.. the brighter it burns, the more challenging it is..

#74: My Ingress Agent Stats

I print screen the stats when before raining. So now the stats figures are slightly different. This Double AP event gave me about 3 mil AP. Earlier target was getting 49 mil AP in total. And I did. Hoping to get 50 mil now.

Initially it was just 1 picture but exceeded the upload limit size.

#71: Reaching limits..

I don’t think I’m really that thick face to borrow anymore. Getting cash from him is harder than being thick face. If he can spend on himself more than you, it’s really time to think. Are you going to fight for yourself or for us? Is it worth anymore, if for us? Everyone is selfish at times.
I was happily posting pictures in my blog and suddenly blog dead. It’s in the progress of fixing and it’s making me unhappy. This is so not right.
Mom said I should get money from him. I did. But what’s his reaction? Sad case. I’ve said many times. Lies after lies I tried to comfort myself. What’s the point?
Still waiting for the morning job to start. Told him but he denied whatever I said, and still say I don’t go find a job. Job after job I applied. I can’t force people to hire me. You know what? He dare to ask me to ask those people why don’t hire me (he did said that once). You think I really that thick face meh?
I’m already reaching limits.