#134

When was the last time you got full support from your family and/or friends, when you tell them that you want to venture into something; a business; a job; an interest; a hobby; something that’s not what you’re doing now?

Do you feel disappointed when you don’t get support from them? Or you’ve expected it all this while? Of you’ve got used to such situations?

Ever feel that, what’s the point of telling your thoughts? Nobody will listen. Nobody will support.

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Sometimes things just don’t go the way you want it. It’s easy for someone to venture into new something new. One has to get out of his/her comfort zone to try new things. One needs support and encouragement from loved ones as well as friends.

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Blogging is something that I never expect to do here. This website started as a sales website; a place for me to promote my service. which is getting Streamyx application online. Then… came 1 year, I can’t remember when, I spotted Nuffnang. I joined and this website of mine became a blog site.

I write whatever I want, but I don’t touch political issues or sensitive issues that will affect my reputation. I don’t think I was as active as now, I blog more now. I blog as though I’m writing a diary. I’m telling you readers a story. I don’t care who or what you have to say because this is where I lay out my thoughts.

On and off, there are paid posts, reviews and contests, to fill gaps when I don’t blog. Sometimes I do have writer’s block. I can’t think what to write, I’m stuck with empty words. I do understand that there are some consequences that I’ve to pay to tell my story. Remember, this is my blog. You don’t have to follow me. I’m a loner.

I will write when I want to, in my writing style, the way I want it. Go as you wish. I don’t care. I don’t expect you to like all the way. Everyone has a choice. I thank you for checking on me. I welcome you for coming. Goodbye if you want that.

#133: What is dad and the girl doing in the room?

Curiosity kills the cat. Everybody is curios over something or someone. It’s normal and all we want is just an answer.

What is dad and the girl doing in the room (my parents’ room) so long? Can I go to the room? Can I be there too? Why can’t they come downstairs and play with me? Why the girl never say hello to me? Why she never call grandmother and grandfather and my uncles and aunties? Why is she so rude? Her mother never teach her?

I don’t those girls dad brings home. Can someone stop them coming? Why is dad like that one? He no bring mom home but different girls. Come only, go straight up room.

Not just a child will have questions, even adults will have the same question. What are they doing in the room? As I said in earlier post, children are fast learners. They would have guess what the dad and the girl doing in the room. What else other than sex? That was the way the dad and the mom had their children.

Is dad and the girl making babies, just like making me? Is dad getting me another mom? Dad and mom had me before getting married. And then sister after that. But dad and mom never register marriage. So am I legal? People say if mom and dad have child, and they are not married, the child is illegal. Yes? No?

#132: Juice Tea

Cold Fruit Juices with Green Tea and Honey

Ingredients:
* 2 oranges
* 2 lemons
* green tea bags or leaves
* honey
* water

Method:
[1] Dilute about 1 teaspoon of honey with water.
[2] Squeeze lemon juice and orange juice with a juicer.
[3] Make a cup or a pot of green tea.
[4] In a big bottle (I used big soy sauce bottle), pour in the lemon juice, orange juice, honey and green tea. Fill till almost full (not too full).
[5] Use a long chopstick to stir. Then close the bottle with the cap and give it a shake (optional).
[6] Keep inside the fridge.

Nice to drink when it’s cold. Not enough cold? Add ice.

AND………….. What did I do with the oranges and lemons and the green tea bags after squeezing the juices and making tea?

I infused them in hot water, and let them sitting in a pot. When it’s cool, pour the liquid into bottles and keep inside the fridge.

#131: My dad came home with a girl BUT she is not my mom

One day, mom and dad argued. Grandma came over to stop the argument. I saw mom came downstairs, walking fast towards the door, and left with grandma and my uncle. That was the last time I saw her. She never came back since then.

Mom did not come back to celebrate Chinese New Year with me. Neither did she come back to celebrate Mother’s Day, Father’s Day and my birthday. Has she forgotten me? Does she love me no more? I miss her but I am too young to find her. I don’t know where is she?

Dad is not doing anything to find mom. Does she not love her anymore? He is just too busy with his girls. I have seen dad bringing girls home. I am sad. He does not talk to me. He does not play with me. He is spending on girls and I don’t like it. How can I tell him my feelings?

Why did they bring me here and not take care nor love me? I am young but don’t think me stupid. I can see. I just don’t know how to say out. Where are you mom? I miss you! Please come back. I only have 1 mom.

Voice of a boy whose mom left her children, left her husband, left her family, left her home. Who knows where is she? Maybe her own family knew, they just don’t want to tell. Maybe the husband knew but don’t bother to find her. There are just too many “maybe”. Whatever happen to both parents, will affect the children. So before one decide, one should think first. Don’t act without thinking, don’t act stupidly. Children are fast learners. They see, they learn, they follow your footsteps. Your decision will affect their wellbeing and their future.

Mom and dad never really care about me. It is like I’m not wanted. I only got love from grandparents, uncles and aunties. I know I am not a good boy because I always do things to make them angry. All I want is their attention. They are working hard to find money for themselves and to pay my school fees. What did dad do? Did he pay my school fees? Did he buy me school books? Did he pay my tuition fees? Did he teach me do homework? NO!

I don’t want to hurt or make anybody unhappy. I love them all. I see my friends’ parents, all love their children so much, but me? What mom is she? Why is she not back? Did she never love dad? Did dad never love mom? Why did they always argue or fight? Every time they fight, I become very scared.

Frequent fighting or arguing in front of your children is something very bad because your children will learn whatever language that you use to scold each other. They will also learn whatever facial emotion, behavior and action used. If you never wanted children, don’t have children. If you never wanted to get married, why have children? Don’t say that you want your wife but you never go find her BUT bringing new girls home and let your children see. Is this the way to save your so-called marriage?

Dad, those girls that you bring home can never replace mom. I don’t know how long will I remember mom. One day, I might forget her. I don’t know when, just one day. Dad, you really disappoint me. Is this how dads are?

Voice of a boy is true voice, true thoughts. It is not a lie. Children don’t lie. Adults lie.

#130: Nutella Biscuits

I got this simple recipe from Food Ink (Facebook page). So today I made.

Ingredients:

  • 1 Egg
  • 200 grams Nutella (any flavor)
  • 1 cup All Purpose Flour
  • 1 pinch of Salt (optional)

Method:

  1. In a bowl, break egg (I used kampung egg because I bought the eggs new, and they are room temperature.
  2. Use a spoon to scoop out all the Nutella from its bottle, into the bowl of egg.
  3. Use a whisk to mix both ingredients.
  4. Then add the flour with a pinch of salt.
  5. Use a rubber spatula to mix the batter.
  6. Pre-heat the oven 180ºC.
  7. Line your baking tray with baking sheet.
  8. This step is 1 step that you have to use your imagination.” Take some of the batter, roll into a ball with your palm and give it a press to flatten it a bit (I made 31 out of shapes). Place each of them on the baking tray.
  9. Bake at 180ºC for 8-10 minutes, depending on your oven.
  10. Remove from oven, place them on baking rack or aside to cool.
  11. Keep them in tight storage.

Simple right?

Nutella Biscuits

Nutella Biscuits

I tried eating 1 when It was still hot, doesn’t look like biscuit at all because it was still kind of chewy. Then had another 1 just now, biscuit texture. Luckily I didn’t burn them. I always for timing problem.