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#42: lost

Things can never be the same again.. we can’t rewind time.. what’s said.. what’s done.. can’t unwind… whatever it is.. remains as memories..

Trying to cope.. trying to forget.. trying to let go.. easy to say.. but hard to do.. this stubborn head resists doing them..  instead.. piled up everything.. resulting emotional breakdowns.. mentally affected.. socially affected.. and maybe physically unwell..

The trust in you remains unchanged.. it’s me that I don’t trust.. and still… I hold back.. even with therapist.. it’s really natural pouring out words to you… I can’t find the same trust with other people.. I’m trying to build it.. but still it’s not natural..

I do wish you are reading..

We can’t avoid forever.. I don’t want that.. if that’s what you want..

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Malaysian Chinese who speaks & writes in English & Malay, and can understand basic Cantonese & Mandarin only. Born in Petaling Jaya, stays in Seri Kembangan.

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